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ღ Wednesday, August 29, 2007

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my dad is hospitalized! query dengue. gosh. must be cuz of his morning exercise everyday. it's at the hot spot in woodlands. and dawn is the highest possibility to get dengue. can say dat luckily i am lazy and din jog with him in the morning.

sigh. he's sick for weeks already. first, flu(which i gotten from him), den bronchitis cuz he nv go see doctor. and den isomnia, diarrhea, nausea, blah blah blah. now in nuh. but i cant visit him. working 3 day shift how to see him? after work go there already after visiting hours, plus i gotta sleep.

i am feeling quite sick too. my sore throat nv recover at all. still so painful when i swallow. i finish my antibiotic already. so y is it liddat? hmmp.

tml have to go to work myself. hopefully i can make it in time.

recently not much confident working. i dunno y i become so lousy. low concentration, low attention span, cant think properly, cant piroritize and the worst thing is i panic. felt so so stress. i feel dat i am behind time. i am the only one that havent take 9cases. and i cant finish work on time. demoralized man. es es gambatte. T.T

*i wish daddy get well soon. gomen ne cannot go visit u*

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ღ Tuesday, August 28, 2007

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whenever i see photos of ppl wearing very fashionably, looking beautiful, my first thought is: 'they must have nice fragrance'. or when i am walking down the road, i smell someone's perfume dat is really nice, i will look at the person longer. sometimes i recognize ppl by their smell. (haha i cannot remember my bf smell. and i cannot remember my own perfume smell)

i really like ppl who smell nice. hehe. but i dun smell nice. i used to have body odor if the weather is hot and humid(which is like most of the time. -.-) until i start using deodorant. nivea at first. den slowly started to have no much effect, tw have this wakilala product specially for armpits(available in watson). haha. they are really good neh. prevent sweating, doesnt have strong smell(cuz nivea have soapy smell and it doesnt match with my perfume), minty smell, cooling and dunno wad's more. aniway i like it la. it cured my body odor, for the time being. if i dun use it for a long long time, den not effective lo.

i wanna smell nice!! perfume cant stay on me for long. i love the perfume dat my baby bought last year for my bdae. which unfortunately, some dummy broke it and doesnt want to admit. main suspect are: my mummy who still deny that she ever touch it b4, my mischevious cousin whom came to my house to stay and have itchy hand. he said he nv touch but was giggling all the way. most suspicious already!! but he still dun wanna admit. my poor perfume. wasted half bottle cuz of the culprit. it's going to finish soon. but i dun wanna buy back the same perfume lehz. wanting to buy perfume very much. but i am so broke. i like the miss sixty perfume. i also like the other one. forgotten the name. a lady gave me the strip to smell on this polo lauren perfume stall. BUT it is not polo lauren's leh. but the smell a bit too sweet. i put tat strip into my purse. and i keep smelling my purse. the smell is still there! 1 week + already.

recently my entry so random. muahahaha. and picture less. sigh. wad can i do. cant bring camera to hospital. even if i bring, nth to take. haha. imagine i keep taking serene's photo, everyone will get sooo bored leh. shit. 3 more hours of sleep. but i cun sleep. nap too much in the day. argh.

i am a good girl earlier on. study the elearning for my IV course which is coming in 6hours time. but i din complete the elearning. way too much. need some time to absorb. wed my off day, will study again. gosh, need to get 32/40 marks to PASS this stupid course. why so early? T.T

BCLS recert this sat. sama, need to get 80% correct to pass, and have to do the BCLS thingy. somehow i think tat every 2 years recert is not very good. not even 2 years from my first liscense, but i forgotten 20% of the things i learn. especially the part after check breathing. do we give 2 ventilation after we found out no breathing or proceed straight away to check pulse?? i really confuse lehz. i remember in sch we check everything den commence CPR but i saw on the video is give 2 breathe before checking pulse. which is the correct one? later ask my peeps. going out on sat. and dat means no seeing my bf on sat. dunno can see on sun ma. his fren bdae too.

xiao ai bdae celebration this sat! looking forward to it. budden kinda headache wat to wear to work. haha. and have to make up. and dat's my bcls assessment. and wad abt my messy bun up hair? omg. i will figure it out.

i hate 12 hours shift when i am working. but i love it when i am having off day. i feel so good having so many off days. hehe.

sister evil strikes again. poor serene. wad u gonna do with the cruise trip? ticket book, leave not approved.

*i wish sister will grant serene her leave. she paid for the trip liao leh!*

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ღ Friday, August 24, 2007

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yatta! pay is here!! this time round got 1,311.50. how come more den last time neh? hmmp.

500 auto go into my savings, i'm left with $811.

200 for my parents, 611

600 for my expenses this mth, 11.

T.T

i only have 11 bucks to buy things this mth.

like so crazy lo!!!!!!

payday is also my saddest day. to part with so much month at 1 go. boohoo. if es wanna buy branded stuff, gonna like save for years liao. siao.

shit. it's sept soon, den oct, den nov. ALOT of birthdays. how how how. where got money liddat? no more spreeing this mth. no more buying clothes this mth. no more drinking sweet drinks. no more mai thai(ex leh the stall. but their food very nice. T.T), no more jap food. T.T does tat mean the not nice econ food and the non filling bar chor mee? oh my. NVM!!! dieting starts now. maybe shld think of some alternatives to fill myself up during breaks. oh no... no more movies. and sorry baby, no more treating u. u better use ur own money lo. oh no no... i think i shall treat u to coffee shop. cuz NOV is MY birthday. and i wan present from U~~~ save up ur money k. i wan good present this year. compensate my poor poor anniversary k. no present de. T.T the card also haven give me. sigh. no pressure u hor. just feel like complaining nia. grrr. i wan present. tml my baby will be release from tekong. and i shall remind him to save up money for MY birthday which i request for my off day already. oh hoho~ if i dun remind he will spend all the money and i will be disappointed again. ahhh... if he hear this he will say i have no faith in him. but baby, it's a fact wor.

i dun ask for expensive present. i ask for present dat have meaning. dat symbolize smth. dat's all. start using ur brain right now. ur present is forever so easy man. branded clothes. but it's not enuff for me. i will come out with smth special of cuz. muahahahahaha.

birthday to come:
sept
jia ai~
jeanyh~
oct
lynno~
nov
mzq~
yasoda~
baby boy~
jeanpj~
siti~
daddy~
gugu~
yanqin~
dec
birdie~
cindy~
janis~
wina~
jan
weiling

anibody missing in my list? haha gl in oct. budden like none of my business hor. oh hohohoho.

es in a crisis~~~

*i wish i strike 4d/toto/smth. shit. i dun buy de lehz. how?????? nvm la. i just wish i suddenly have alot of money la*

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11:08 PM

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after 2 days of rest, i feel genki~~ tml ready to go work le. gambatte es~ hohoho.

this 3 days of staying at home, and i didnt get bored to death. all thanks to ONE PIECE. muahahaha. some ppl still q-ing for my one piece discs which are still stuck at my cousin's place and he is going to be a daddy soon. hehe. kawaii baby chan coming next year. oh hohohoho. aniway, my clever bf found a way to watch OP without downloading it(take a long time for that webby to put up for us to download -.-). now everything also video streaming le. download for wad? still risk getting caught by police. we are soooo poor thing. other country it isnt illegal to download anime know? if the anime is unliscense la. aniway, catch one piece here. it has from 1st epi up till 320 currently. i am at 245 currently. and my honey is at 270+++?

take sometime to load finish. but it is still way faster den downloading it. and also more accessible. so the q-ing ppl, go there watch la. lol. dun q animore. quality as good as downloaded ones but of cuz smaller screen. no pain no gain.

*i wish i got endless anime to watch. i'm bored again.*

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1:45 PM

ღ Wednesday, August 22, 2007

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in the end took mc. but i went to work. really cant stand it animore den go see dr at clinic. it's foc for staff wor! was like so sua ku. dunno the procedure anithing.

mc for 2 days. ah... this week i only work on mon and sat. felt abit guilty for leaving the busy busy ward.

G&G lenses

es is wearing G&G lenses no. 11 - Dreamy grey.

can see the diff? pic 1 nv wear, pic 2 got wear.

haha. this close up pic shows how big my contact lenses is. the diameter is bigger den acuve define. i tried acuve define b4. no difference. got wear like nv wear lehz. i expect dreamy grey to be more greyish. like my previous color contact. but it turns out rather dark and natural.

i had been using this G&G barbie lenses for months now(since march). it last for 1 year. but i dun wear it often. according to the uncle in the spectacle shop, he said color contact lenses are mainly the cause for corneal ulcer. dat time when i was wearing my 'Encore Colors', so many ppl gotten the ulcers. and i stop using altogether. choy choy i haven got it leh. and since this one is 1year. i can keep it and wear on special occasions(when going shopping. muahahahaha). it is quite worth it la. even though nv wear often. 1 year lenses dat i bought is only $40. while the monthly dat i buy in shops are $15 a pair(cheapest shop that i find). ey, $40 hen cheap lehz. lol.

i bought them at this webbie: http://shopping-diva.blogspot.com/

had been buying items from her for quite some time. i love her updates(include how to care for these lenses. and how much longer we have to wait. plenty of updates. not to mention i recieve them earlier then i expect). hehe. and of cuz i love my lenses. dat's the reason mimiyan xiao jie eyes look bigger now. hahaha.

i so lazy to wear contact to work la. everydya just survive with my spec dat keep slipping down my nose. hur hur. order new lenses already. Dueba's. the base curve is more close to my encore colors. i cant wait! ^^

p.s: her nu ren wo zui da's spree very worth it. so cheap neh. the nose clip thingy is $13.50 at SASA....

*i wish i got lots of money to buy thing from sprees*

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11:40 PM

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argh! i am feeling so sick right now. i shld be in bed now, asleep. but i am feeling so lousy. flu coming soon. worst, fever coming very soon. i swallowed a extra strong panadol. no flu panadol left? wad am i suppose to do? T.T

i am super afraid of getting mc. especially when tml i am assigned to be AN. if i take mc, they will sure say dat i dun wanna do AN job. only wanna do SN job. i am like mentally calculating if they have enuff staff tml. even if they have, i still have no guts to take mc. ESPECIALLY mc after my day off. damn. but i feel so sick. i hope i will recover tml. god bless. i even bought mr. donut for my girls tml. please please please at least let me survive tml. i dont mind taking mc on thurs if really cannot make it. there are enuff SNs to help me. but no, i cun take mc when there is shortage of AN. damn.

wasnt feeling well the past 2 days. suffering from morning tummyache syndrome. makes me grumpy and irritable. and also jelly legs. or is it work fright syndrome?

i have been coping well in the ward, but real disappointment cuz we are still taking 6 cases, in this kind of speed, i think i will need 9 mths before my confirmation. and there goes my bonus and this year annual leave. no AL until confirmation for us. damn.

somewhat pissed off when an AN said dat serene and yang juan keep hugging case sheet, right infront of me. i was thinking dat she will said dat i hug case sheet too if i am not right in front of her. serene and yang juan did not do dat. it was feeding NGT time, and i happen to passby. and she make a remark saying 'the sn will not help if i nv open my mouth'. well, obviously!

how did we know she needs help? gosh, she was quite sacarstic when i ask her she need help or not earlier in the day. she said 'now then u ask, nothing to do now, later we will need help again, help us later'. i know we should help them. 12hrs of working as AN is not easy at all. need alot of physical strength and all. and we understand. we help them alot. they went for the ECG checklist thingy, me and serene start doing turning for them. i know we are slow. but we are still new. and have to be more cautious. in the end nv help much but our intentions are good right.

i help my AN plenty of times, help her turning patient, didnt put the medicine cup at the bedside and wait for them to feed. i feed myself always. i try my best to help wadever i can. and felt please with myself. they went for the talk at 3-4.30. we did our best, answer call bell and everything. just nv help with documentation. i dun wanna interfer with their charting. wad if i chart at the wrong row and they have smth to add in? i will get scolded. serene and yangjuan help alot too. we even ans the call bell at the other side. all was fine during the talk.

and den they came back. at 4-4.30 the AN doesnt have much to do. so we quickly write our reports so we can help them later and go for break so that other SN can go too. but guess wad the AN who came from the talk says? 'the SN dun even care if the AN go for break or not'. i was like SOOO stun. we always miss our break. always have to eat after work. worst case is that the food court closed already. did anione spare a thought for us? i can help the AN but who can help us SN??? i can do the turning the feeding for u. will u do my discharge? my admission? write my report for me? spare a thought for us. we are still rather new, we are still trying to manage our time well. we have improve cant u see? we have been trying to help u. there wasnt a moment of rest except during break for us. we are always on our feets. we are doing our best. even though they are AN but they are ten times more experienced den us. they could help us. we din ask for much help from them. didnt add workload from them. feeling so bad even when i ask them to help me give dulcolax. feeling worse when my pt needs frequent suctioning. i can feel their workload. and i tried to help. i bring my pts to toilet. i din ask my AN or the ahmahs. and i get scolding for doing dat. reason being i din pioritize my work. we are under lots of stress. for us, it's a strain mentally. sometimes i felt so worn out dat i cun think at all. stand there for few secs staring into the space b4 i know wad to do next. i feel like i am going to faint any min. but i still continue to help without complaining. i even feel happy helping them. so wad is she complaining abt? injustice. i voice it out. i said to her 'actually my fren help alot when u are not here' and there was silence.

IF.... she ever say dat we only hug case sheet to sister or infront of any of us again, i wun hesitate to say that to her. dont expect us to be superwoman. we only learn tat teeny bit in sch. dun bully us again. AN are having backache cuz SNs dun help. and guess wad? i helped wadever i could and i am going to collaspe soon. 1 day, i would faint in the ward. dun be surprise.

ha! es whom had so much pride in not using brain, had been using so much of MY brain dat i am having headache every single day. and nv once did i cry. i am so proud of myself. and my newly found good memory. i am going to survive. i wun let anyone bully us. jia you girls. we can do it. u ppl are fantastic nurses. better den i am. especially poor serene. often get 'commented' unknowingly. and i am protesting silently. dun be so harsh on them please. i dun mind the harshness. i had been in the ward b4. i am ashame of my incompetence. but i have been trying my best everyday. i am so ashame of us still taking 6 cases. but currently dat's all i can cope. max: 7 patients.

no matter what, dont fret, we are not bonded. not dat i am thinking of escape. but it calms me down when i think dat if i cant take it animore, i can always leave. well, admin job can also earn me 1k per mth. and i dun need to go for my nursing degree animore. haha.

aniway, GAMBATTE es!! i am a sponge. absorb in everything i could. i am preparing myself for degree. gambatte!

on a not so lighter note, hehe. my bld test result is back, i got borderline high cholesterol. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT??? well, most ppl cun. haha. HDL - VERY high. LDL - borderline high. am i dying? gosh, i dun eat egg yolk, seafood, pig liver, dun take lots of dairy products. the only sin i committed is the unresistable chicken skin which i dun get to eat often too. wad's wrong? MUST be my genes. 80% of getting it from my daddy. i must exercise already. if not, by 40, i will get heart diseases and die. argh... so much hard work. y not die now? -.- shannaro.

*i wish no one bully them again. i wun protest quietly now!*

enough of my rants. good night minnan. oyasumi nasai. i miss wina, charlene, lynn and jean(s), the bqj, yq and wl. (jeanyh, gomen ne, i forget to reply u dat day. busy working. hope u enjoy ur OT attachment. i loved mine. ^^ hopefully can see u in TTSH!)

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12:10 AM

ღ Monday, August 13, 2007

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dear bloggy, i neglected u for so long. so now, i am here again. to contribute to u~

siao.

haha. dat day, we had lesson on SBAR and resus skill. sbar was a good exchange session with sister layhoon. sister! we love u!

dat's cutie siti and serene at our tea room.

siti, soda and janice during our little tea break. hehe. at 6D.

after break we have our resus skills. at first sister fong chi demonstrate for us. and poor me, standing the nearest cuz i am short, happen to be the one demonstrating for everyone. i am the C nurse. doing cpr. gosh. i did dat on real patient b4 nehz. so i demonstrated all dat i know. luckily i read up the day b4. if not so embarrassing. but my face did turn red. cuz i am shy~~ hehe. ya la i am shy abt doing dat infront of so many ppl.

after our assessment, waiting for the last group. i secretly take out my cam and squat down and take their pic. haha. vain ya. the peace sign again.

me and serene. omg my double chin. es is growing fat. someone please help me!

like real emergency right? where photography cannot stay at one position. must ruN!

me and the poor sick po with trachystomy. i need suction, says PO.

mummy po and baby po and her milk bottle. hehe.

wrong position. dun copy! hehe. sister is so serious down there. hehe. saw her kids dat day. so adorable. and sister is soooo shy dat we saw her kids. hehe.

serene! wad u doing??

haha. es snatch the light.

OINK with a capital O.

hello, emergency dun smile smile! hehe. kartini and wei ping~ doing wad nurses suppose to do during emergency. ah... but no smile.

i sitting on yasoda lap and popo sit on my lap. hehe. is tat yasoda hand behind me? yasoda loves me. muahahaha. she is soooo cute.

haha. when they discover i got cam. dat's wad they do.

haha trying to see how many ppl they can squeeze in. i half squat k.

haha i look so cute. *blush* y my cam passing around har?

POSE!

haha. they are so aggressive.

haha. in the lift. left side and right side got jealous. they wan their pics to be taken.

haha. revengue.

at first we arranged to go sakura buffet for dinner with all the level 10 girls. budden poor soda is sick. dun wan her to pay 30 for nth. so since my mummy nv cook, i suggest dat we go have dinner.

wad we always do. withdraw money... and take photos. haha. poor siti behind. OMG nisa~

hhaa withdraw half way also can take pic.

they seems like wanting to take alot more pics. so we saw that the orchid garden is open, and we dash in and took photos!

sneak shot by nisa. oh my! my tummy showed.

onli siti look at the right cam.

yea~

oh my fat calves~

nice swing though.

haha. rofl. yasoda look broken. and they wanna push her down.

lol. nisa cannot contain her laughter animore.

NG again.

siti wad r u doing?

they got too crazy. so i took this to cool myself down. hehe.

THE real day of gathering @ sakura buffet.

we had SWE(service with excellence) dat day. janice, ling yan, meimei and yasoda~

after SWE, we rush to ward and change!

haha. lenny half changed. so relax sitting down there. cuz 10B girls wanna bath.

yang juan already changed. and i still dilly dally.

at sakura! gosh. they non halal and they din told us on the phone when yasoda make reservation. yasoda name is obviously not chinese lo. they shld make it a point to ask if there is any malay coming. no choice, the poor girls have to go eat with us. at least no pork no lard. i felt so bad for them.

first row(left): serene, siti, yasoda, lena, yang juan, lenny, kartini
second row(left): wei ping, mei mei, xing na, ling yan.
behind the scene: me and janice.
ey... where's nisa??

hehehe.

pretty siti and nisa.

the gentle girls.

the loud girls. roar!

lenny xing na serene and me. 10c and d

buffet was lots of fun. laugh like mad. ppl say our table is the nosiest in the whole restaurant. *blush* i laugh like mad. it's a miracle i din choke to death. haha. laugh till tears came out. they make me sounds as if i only keep eating and eating nv laugh at the jokes. haha. alot of jokes la. too much to name them. i love u girls!

siti and nisa~ cant see it well. but it's them.

siti. taken by, i dunno hu.

nisa and yasoda says their arm look fat. so they did this:

oops.

nisa's idea. haha. we run to escalator and get ready.

ran out of time!!! haha.

and den home sweet home. they cun think of other activities.

next:

last day of orientation. sob.... orientation, i miss u!!!!!!

and someone is sick...

dat the ever cute siti. hehe.

ya... is the 2 of them again. haha.

due to janice's misconduct, she is being restraint. muahahhaa

during break:

butts. hehe.

us with our drinho drinks. haha. did janice just moved serene away?

we will miss u, mr khong guan and drinho. drinho, i hate ur orange flavor one.

haha. serene cannot squeeze in.

a kind soul took for us. hehe.

and mya cant resist photo taking and joined us.

chop making session:

we went to make chop after work on sat. ohhh sat is miserable. i got no break and i tend to pt's relative most of the time. according to xt, sat is the busiest. T.T 2 discharge on the same day. and omg. lots of relatives.

after work struggle to food court and eat. serene watched me eat. den janice come join us. and off we go to far east. haha.

again, lots of jokes la. laughing all the way. i am the clown. -.-

i din know dat we are at orchard mrt already. haha. cuz from novena to orchard is super near. so i dunno dat we reach already. and i walk with so much confidence, at the wrong side. hahahahaha. serene followed me and so does a small boy. janice laugh till SOB. me too. cuz the boy was later tap on the shoulder by his mum and says 'here lah!' hahahahaha. my god!

bring them to far east top level looking for the chop shop. walk a big circle den i remember dat i made chop at far east b4. with adeline for cyndi fanclub. haha. so i quickly brought them to there. after waiting for lift which nv arrive and den go down by escalator. they are ready to kill me by den. hehe.

luckily we reach early. if not the chop chop shop close already. it is call 'durachop' OMG. so funny. durapore?

we test alot of chop. and den finally decide on a small and pink chop. so cute~ we all got the same one. haha. made some jokes there too. i think the boss have slurred speech nehz.

walk about for awhile and we decided dat we are too bored. so i said, 'do wad? ktv ah?'

and unknowingly, they automatically leave far east and walk towards partyworld direction. LOL. they love singing man.

ah partyworld is full. the guy attitude sucks. lousy. so we called alot branches of kbox. some too ex. some no one answer. so i suggest we go amk. if no kbox sing, den we go watch movie. and they agreed. all i wan is just aircon. lol. freaking hot la.

went there, eat mos burger and den walk to kbox. aha! the newer kbox have space and it's only 23+++. it's a sat night leh. went in and sing immediately. i love the amk new kbox lehz. baby let's go there k? hehe. i heard it is cheaper too.

singing queen

haha. i dunno y serene so high. haha. laugh like madder den mad.

first time with flash and my complexion look not bad. haha.

they sing real well. i like the way serene sing. i can nv sing dat way. the light and flexible tone. i am always strong and loud. bahhhh.... lol. janice will rock with the music. and me, i imitate someone we all know. and they laugh like mad. haha. i am a born joker. buahahaha.

*i wish we can have fun together soon*

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im finally back after so long. a super belated HAPPY NURSES DAY n HAPPY NATIONAL DAY! i totally love nurses day. make me feel like a real nurse. and real glad dat i become a nurse. i got some nurses day pics here. hehe. but.... before dat, i wanna present to u, my cute sister(NO) whom leave us to go level 9 T.T she so cute la.

it reads: farewell sister lum.

this people hold for her a farewell party at 6D(the empty ward). they cook and bring everything. so much effort lehz. night shift ppl haven even go home and sleep, they went home and immediately prepare food, ppl off day come back and prepare salad. so touching hor? and me and serene soooo paiseh. cuz we just went to eat. haha. we did something good ok. see. i help to take pics. though i have no idea how to send to them. muahahaha. the food is great. but i din really take pics of it. cuz seems weird. haha.

we have (left) lincy, mary ann(she's very sweet to me during prcp. now still), francis(she going back her country already. T.T i miss her. she is very good), sister lum(she so kind to me during prcp), rajes(she teach me lots of AN stuff), kalimah(just promoted to SAN), cherrie, john patrick, sheena and vani(dunno how to spell her name. she is a great nurse. kinda like spokeperson for AN). where are the staff nurses??

sister so excited abt the watch dat is ex and beautiful.

haha showing off her watch (by request)

feeding cherrie cherry. haha.

didnt stay very long. we super new and eat their food. and din do anithing. wan us to stay how long? lol. try abit of everything and went home to rest. had a long day dat day. hehe.

speaking of long day, WE ARE NOW OFFICIALLY WORKING 12(10 if minus break) HOURS SHIFT!!!! 7 - 7 everyday. and 4 working days. 3 off day. yippie. but wad sucks is dat this week i gotta work on weekend 7-7. how am i going to see my darling? T.T i cun go out with him after work. i will be rushing home and bath and everything den sleep early for the next day. i am so doomed. T.T and he will finally come back after his field camp this week. coming out on fri(probably night) and going back sun. how?? i feel so so so so so so sad. my off day on mon, tues, fri. shit. the moment i heard sister say 'tomorrow and tuesday day off' i knew it, my weekend burnt. SHANNARO!!! poor baby.

sigh.......

oh ya! nurses day! the joyful happiest nurses day i had!

1st august is nurses day. 31st july, we celebrated nurses day big scale. ..... scarly 31 is the real nurses day. which day har?

thinking of the food, i feel hungry again. boohoo.

went to work happily at 8am dat day. we work 8-4 cuz .... WE GOT MOVIE MARATHON!!! muahahahahahaha. we conspired and told sister dat we wanna watch music and lyrics at 1pm TOGETHER. at first we tot sister wun agree cuz this is how the conversation goes:

sister yeong: u all going for the movie today right?
me n serene: ya
s.y: u all have to go 2 by 2 u know. cannot have all of u go at once.
m.s: .....
s.y: so wad time u all wanna go?
me: serene and i wanna watch 1pm music and lyric.
s.y: (writing on paper) okie. so u and serene...
me: lenny, yang juan and siti also wanna watch dat.
s.y: (still writing) lenny, yang juan, siti (and so she wrote all our name at the 1pm slot!)
m.s: 0.0
s.y: (look at us)
m.s: (faster go back work and take the tickets before she change her mind)

phew. though siti later nv sit with us.

we followed xiao tian dat day. she seems quite happy dat day. haha. during our break, (drag to break by xt) me and serene followed xiao tian. cuz we also not sure where is the 'party' and we went to the theatrette. there is buffet. but only left bee hoon. -.- we stand there dunno wad to do, xt went ahead and take food and eat. this shows the different of old staff and new staff. me and serene still standing there. den brother elvis(hehe) served us, he kiap the beehoon for us. ALOT. but i was still hungry. hahaha. leng noy (spelt liddat) the ADN came over and talk to xt and saw us there. she say one look she know we are new grads. cuz we so quiet and stand there eating. while others are so loud. hahaha. wait till we get loud har. lol.

xt keep wanting to go watch movie. and drag us to go too. even though we watching the 1pm. so we used our break time and went in to watch 'happy feets'. i guessed we watch the farnie part. haha. i watch b4 le. serene too. but xt din. but me and serene had a great laugh at some parts. we dun wanna go back to the ward after day. haha. wanna stay in and watch!!! wanna see the part where he was in the zoo. too bad.

went back ward feeling super hungry. my poor break. lol. din do much, den sister yeong came to serene and me, asking us to NO room. i thought she wanna us to help her change the alcohol handrub. but wad she wan is us, helping sister hat(pronounce as hard/heart/hart) make the boards and flipper for 10d performance after the movie. me and serene was thrilled. haha no need work wad.

we only paste them on the stick. dunno wad stick la. lol. den we mumble some ideas abt banner and such. and they out of nowhere took out a big board. and my brain goes 'ting ting ting' i took the empty colored paper and scotch tape, double sided tape and markers and we went to the interview room to do it. i draw bubble 'GO level 10' and den serene cut them. den i draw hearts and wings. and randoming paste onto the board.

serene, sister hat and serene the CNE(whom check my temperature during prcp cuz i running a fever) was so thrilled with my wings. haha. sister hat says it is a bird. yes, they are the wings dat i put into the box of favorites for lynn on her birthday. but of cuz it looks nicer. haha. with practices ma. cuz we need to leave by 1 to watch the movie, we only have limited time. so we rush and rush. and managed to make a very nice board. but i din took photo of it cuz i got no camera and there's time constraint. haha. i injured my finger for art. brush it again the scotch tape holder sharp part. where we tear the tape. it hurts when contact with gloves. -.-

rush down and watch 'music and lyrics' it is a very very nice movie. and the song u hear at my blog is from there. 'way back into love' we level 10 gers love this song. i totally like the moment when we in tut room 10A and we play the song on my phone and we sing together. it is like so magical. hehe. b4 dat, we eat the buffet again. the food is back~ haha. new batch of food. eat eat eat.

btw, there are 4 movie dat day. at 8am, 'night in museum', 11am, 'happy feets', 1pm 'music and lyrics', 6pm 'pursuit of happiness'.

i totally heart music and lyric. there is one point of time tat it is touching. but i din cry. embarrassing de lehz. haha. and and and i cun stand the kissing part. it felt super long la. with CNE, and the APN intern sister (forget her name) sitting behind us, and so many seniors around. feels so weird. haha. but we laugh like hell. weiping sits next to nisa whom sit next to yasoda whom sits next to me and next to me is serene and lastly xing na? janice sit behind us with kartini, serene the CNE and APN. siti sits next to david at the other end of the room. i saw wina and her level gers too. hehe. i laugh till i have to grab hold of serene hand. lol. kua zhang. we have tibits and mineral water to bring in and watch. really dunno y they put the no food and drinks signboard outside. i used to think dat sister and the speaker let us eat during orientation cuz more relax or wad. now i really think dat the sign is fake de.

the movie is so nice~~ discuss abt it for a long time. haha.

after movie, rush back to ward to take the board and shaker and flipper. there is going to be nurses day performance! at first din know there is performance. i tot nurses day celebration only have lotsa food and movie. haha.

this year theme is, through teamwork we serve and heal.

we level 10 girls are very hyper. shouting out loud. hehe. they are so proud of us lehz. muahahaha. ppl comment to serene the cne dat we have good team spirit. of cuz la, 1 for all all for 1 lehz. we waited outside to go in. they dun let ppl go in. only the award winners. den once the door open, we ran in and book a row. haha. level ten took 1 row(or more). once the screen shows level ten ppl, we scream and cheer and do kallang wave. haha! serene the CNE dunno how to do kallang wave. we keep teasing her. and den, the programme started.

the mc ask for 4 person. and we kinda sabo sister hat. hehe. and wad they have to do are quite simple. DANCE. i can nv do dat. i think i will burst into tears on stage. i got severe stage fright. and no one believes it. T.T

if sister happens to see this, i am dead. hehe. see she look like so scared. like reluctant. i would if it were me.

but...

look at how high she is!!! me and siti couldnt believe our eyes. we laughed like mad. she got a video of it. haha. and i took photos. sooooo brave sister! go sister! the video of hers full of screaming. and i think dat it's me. the one dat sounds like someone murdering me. haha.

tu tu tu~ (stands for butt in thai. so says the mc)

first performance by ttsh rehab. there is a sister inside! in purple. ppl who went amk for attachment shld remember her.

level 10!!!!!!!!!! they got second. doing a musical.

so cute hor.

the nurse whom act as patient is so farnie.

super missy~

go go super missy~

there are alot performance dat are so farnie dat i almost die from laughing.

the telephone stand dat looks like 80s.

this is level 7's 'i will survive'. super farnie. they got first. dat's a sister in cheong sum.

changing patient's diaper.

butt.

oh NO!! he got excoriation

must use comfeel powder.

hahahaha.

the farnie wife of patient.

haha. this really good la. they sing the song we will survive. but change the lyric. totally reflect us man. they said e-HOR is everyone's happiness is our responsibility. ROFL.

ICU angel performance. one of them is a sister too. very young. 1 nurse i work with her b4 at ey... forget which ward. charlotte. wina knows her too.

the winning group.

this marks the end of our performance.

after dat, BUFFET again. haha. i ate so many times la. re queue after i finish the food. haha. the q was super long lo. after eating, q and take popcorn. haha. janice is horrified by me~

went back ward to change and go home. hehe. happy happy day.

next day was buffet at level 4. went there for awhile. din eat. others tell me the food not nice dat day and very little. but i saw alot of buffet tables lehz. maybe all the same? hmm. no idea. haha. the place they put the fruits is soooo kua zhang lo. i took a sneak pic of it. but forget to upload. hehe.

dat's the end of nurses day~

coming up next: resus skills.

*i wish i can see my boy boy soon*

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still here. sigh. 2nd day of 6 days field camp. i hope i dun go crazy soon. first time cant contact him for 6 days. wad would i do if he disappear one day? i feel so restless. waiting for call dat will never come. my phone seems useless now. feel like chucking it at one corner. 4 more days to go. and i am dying soon. wanted to talk to him abt sooooo much things but i cant. and when i finally can find him, i will forgot wad to tell him. wanna tell him abt how i cope my 6 cases dat day and din went for break for the first time in my nursing life. how hungry and how i feel like fainting and i was still having menses. and how i regain my energy by just drinking plain water. wanna tell him wad a nurse i was dat day. wanna tell him abt my singing session with janice and serene. and our chop making, and they wanting to kill me for bringing them roundabout far east. and how i made them laugh. and i am on 12 hours shift now. and dat i cant hang out with him this weekend. and i wanna go dental and facial. and i finish my korean show. and how bored i am right now. and......................

how much i missed him

es is so hopeless. baby, come back soon. dont fall sick. dont get bullied. dont .... i dunno. i actually think dat he got used to me doting him. he is spoilt now. super spoilt. i tot going into army will toughen him up. and yes it does, when he is inside he is tough and when outside, expect me to dote on him more cuz he is tire, suffer in ns. can he dote on me more? i have my stress, my bad day, my worries, my mood. while me doting on u, who will dote on me? not as if my parents dun dote me. but it seems like i am rejecting it. can u make me feel like the most treasured person in the world?

cant believe i cried infront of his mother the other day. he told me b4 his mum hate ppl crying. but doesnt seems so. is it becuz he wanted me to stop crying? i cant help it. we were talking abt our work difficulties. his mum told us abt her working problem. and i talk abt mine. i was really emotional at some part but i control it well. but i cant stand him. his mood is not good since breakfast. and i din say anithing abt it. behaved myself. cant stand it the way he response to our conversation. it sounds sarcastic and mean. even to his mother. i told him dat his advice is not applicable to my situation. but he cant accept it. he says dat i am timid and will nv have courage to change things. i felt so sad. feel dat he did not give me the support dat i give him. i got agitated and said dat if i follow his advice i might lose my job, get comdemn or wad. and said dat the person giving advice is easy as they does not hold any responsibility. which i think is very true.

if u tell me dat ur sergaent is very bad. and i say kill him. will u follow wad i say? if u know dat ur consequence of u doing dat is deadly, will u follow wad i say?

he got angry and ask did he make me lose my job. or smth liddat. i cannot listen at dat point. his mum knew dat something bad is happening. and got serious and talk to him. telling him dat he shld put himself in my shoes b4 saying those irresponsible words. i turned my head ahead from them. and i cried. i dun think he ever put himself in my shoe. dat's smth he dunno how to do. putting himself in others shoe. either he dunno or he dun wan to. i hate crying in public. somemore at such a small restaurant with glass window at level 1. everyone can look in and know dat i am crying. he was soooo angry. he stop talking angrily after his mum says dont be so harsh, u made her cry. i felt so miserable. 3rd time booking out and i cried 2 times.

this time he said, if u dun wan ppl advise, dun complain. i din even complain to him. i was discussing with his mum abt wad kind of problem we face during work. and of cuz his mum gave me some advise, she worked for so many years, seen so many different kind of ppl. and i listened. i dun need his kind of advise. i know he dun like me complain and i din complain. i din run away from the problem. i face it. but he made me sounds like everytime i got problem i avoid them. i din... the problem is not solved yet, but i am still living with it. i din say i dun wanna be a nurse anymore, i dun wanna work in ttsh animore. did i? i was just joking abt leaving. i was just thinking of somewhere i can go if i really dont like working in ttsh. am i wrong to do dat?

he keep thinking dat i wun go and take my degree. and dat i was just saying it as it please me. thinking dat i dun have dat determination. thinking dat i am lazy. i told u didnt i? i am going. and dat means i am going. y cun trust me? am i so not trustworthy? it sadden me alot. i din argue anithing. we dun even have the whole weekend together. i dun feel like wasting it. even though our problem was not solve. i am still thinking of ways. i tot u already understand me. and really become understanding and supportive b4 u go ns. now it seems like u din change at all. all the effort is forgotten. and yet, i am giving u so much. missing u so much, loving u more everyday. i just wanted to be treated the same.

while u were sleeping beside me, i was wide awake thinking maybe i shld not meet u everytime u book out. u dun seems keen to see me. in ur msg, it was as if u cun wait to see me. but when we meet, there was so little smiles from u. i tot u might be tire. and also cuz u r sick. so i did wadever i can to please u. u had so much fun watching the movie. but back home seems like one piece is much entertaining den me. even though i was watching with u, but i felt so left out. i need alot of attention. but i am not recieving ani of it. i felt dat even if i am not with u after u book out, u still can have as much fun. or many even more. it makes me feel so miserable. i wanted to suggest to u not to meet u. but i cant. i wanted to spend alot of time with u. but it wasnt happy. i dunno wad's the point animore. and i cun talk to u abt it. u cun carry our unhappiness when u book in. i keep wishing. maybe u will treat me better when u in army, when u r not sick, when u r not tire. but till now, i am still wishing. just when i tot we will be normal again.

u know how i feel? i feel so sad whenever i think dat working is much more fun than being with u. i feel so sad when i think dat u r happier in army den u r with me. yet when i think of how much we been through together i cant bear to put u aside. u know, i am always there for u. but i wasnt so sure abt u. i keep saying 'my bf my bf my bf' but i wasnt happy when i with u. y am i always talking abt u in such a happy tone?

my bf, behaving myself infront of u is so tiring. i can let myself go free when i am with my frens. behaving myself to avoid making u angry, irritated and annoyed. but i was ill treating myself dat way. i felt so contradicting. as the one dat i want to love most is myself. and u said dat u dont love urself. if so, where is ur love? who did u give it to? me? i cun realli feel it. i feel so one sided. seems like if i dun talk, u wun get angry. do i have to become mute? everyone knows dat i am loud. y am i doing all this to myself? even if i try my best, u still dun feel satisfied. y?

shld i just forget abt it. and do wadever i want? i can, if i get immune to ur anger. i dun like the way u r treating ur mum. cuz dat's the way u r treating me. after u been through so much, shldnt ur mum and i be the most important person to u? we nv leave u, always support u. aint u afraid dat u might chase us away 1 day?

i really dun wanna stop loving u. but if i must, i will. u understand?

no u dont. u wun be reading this aniway.

if i happen to stop loving u, i dun think i have ani love for anione animore.

i really like ur mum. and i love u very much. dont let us end ok?

even though now seems like we are ok. smiling when we see each other. but this kind of problem will occur again. not dat i am running away. but i cun see much solution. din i try my best?

u r so full of smiles when u talk to ur frens. where are the smiles for me?

now dat we are close, i dont need the smiles animore?

i wan back the smiles. i wan the treatment dat make me feel like i am important to u once again. not dat u cun do it. u did it b4.

i dun wanna cry in public animore. no... i dun wanna cry animore. i hate u shouting at me in the public. i hate u shouting at me. i hate ppl looking at me crying and u shouting at me. i hate it.

u must have hate it if u know dat i am mentioning them again. u would say, 'i tot already settle already, y u have to bring it up again?'. u dun understand do u? it is not over. not over until u treat me right.

even my frens cherish me more than u do. wad am i suppose to do? maybe i dun need a boyfren afterall. u dun need me afterall. but i would feel so lonely. cuz to me, u r more important den anibody else in my life. i intend to marry u u know? when can u treat me right finally? i am still waiting. meanwhile, wad shld i do?

can we just be happy?

life is not like end of the day is happy and it means dat nth sad had happen during the day. it will not be forgotten even though it is forgiven. correct wad u done wrong. i am doing my best.

now dat i just started work, i am anxious to do a good job. so i am giving myself stress. but i am proud of myself dat i did not load them onto u. i did not complain to u. but at the same time i feel sad. if i cant confine to u. wad's bf for?

i hope dat god will bless me. and u will see dat how u have been treating me. i need to be loved.

i got angry when u keep asking me to give u massage even though i told u i am having menses cramp and it hurts. and i know u will get angry if u hear this. and say dat next time i dun have to give u massage animore. and will push me away if i try to. instead of dat, cant u say u r sorry and next time dun force me. and u still can get ur massage when i am well. isnt this a good way to solve problem? u always like to use the most hurtful way. i dun get it.

i can only wait for the time being. i wonder if anione can love u like i do. if there is, i wanna know how they can do it.

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Song lyrics | Way Back Into Love lyrics

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today during nurses day celebration, i heard the name of our assistant director of nursing.

and hours later, i got on phone with my dear michael.

and i just found out, tat's his sister-in-law whom i tot all along was a SN, 2 weeks ago found out during SARS period, she was snr. nurse clinician. and now, asst. director of nursing?!?

gosh. make me kinda nervous.

will i go so far?

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